Friday, June 7, 2013

Cankerous Habit

Oh social media. It keeps me sane at work, helps me and Mitch unwind after work, entertains us while waiting for food at restaurants, keeps us in touch w/ people we love...AND MAKES ME COVET LIKE CRAZY.



"Why can't we be living in beautiful, charming costal city with an adorable baby girl, nice house and me making making easy money on the side managing social media for a dance studio??"

Seriously though, I just finished stalking an acquaintance who has that exact life. She had her baby naturally, is skinny, gorgeous and has the cutest house. Chevron rugs, granite countertops, kitchenaid, crown molding etc. I just wasted 45 mins at work going through her blog and getting more covetous with each scroll.

NOT GOOD. First of all, Mitch loves it here and is thriving in school. We have plenty to be grateful for and I need to support him. Period. 

I also need to stop coveting. That girl didn't get where she is by pouting over other girls "lucky lives" (well actually I don't really know since I really don't know her well, but I'm assuming she's the go-getter, no complaining type). 

Now since I can't come up with much advice on how to avoid this, I turned to an Ensign article written by one of my former professors at BYU. He says of coveting, 

"Often the cankering of the soul and the destruction of our spiritual powers that stem from materialism, greed, jealousy, and envy are so slow that we may not even recognize them in ourselves until other, more serious problems appear."  http://www.lds.org/liahona/1998/12/thou-shalt-not-covet?lang=eng

Whew, that's a hard statement, but from what we know of the devil, he works likes this. Whispering "reading blogs for hours is harmless....the discontent you feel is normal....it's okay to be constantly dreaming of future riches". 

The most clever personification of the devil by far is the oft-quoted Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis. I found these gems on the topic of coveting:

“Nearly all vices are rooted in the future. Gratitude looks to the past and love to the present; fear, avarice, lust and ambition look ahead.”

“Prosperity knits a man to the world. He feels that he is finding his place in it, while really it is finding its place in him.” 

Now, that being said, I do believe there is a right way to read blogs, status posts, and view instagrams of people that are capturing a happy life moment. We must think of it as just that. "How nice that they can afford a beautiful new home" or "They must be so excited to have a brand new baby". I think it's fine to enjoy learning about other's successes and highlights, but the moment we start to compare it to our own life is when the toxin starts to drip into our souls. Okay, that was dramatic but I really think there is a healthy balance and a really unhealthy imbalance. 

Here's to partaking of social media, getting excited about the present, being grateful for what I have while still gleaning positive ideas and motivation from others. 

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Updates...

I usually try to avoid just writing a post about my life details, but a lot has happened recently and I've come across nothing clever or epiphanous.

How bad did I want to move back east? February 29, 2012 12:30 pm: We'd been married all of 13 days and Mitch had yet to even taken his final LSAT to make him eligible, I created a folder in Evernote titled "Future Plans". I was, in every sense of the word, ecstatic and thrilled and invigorated and every other word for excited about moving away. Sure Idaho was a nice place to grow up and Utah treated me fine, but North Carolina? Or Virginia? Vermont? Or even Tennessee? Every picture in every book or website that I'd ever seen of those places rotated through my mind. I could see those in person! I could live and work and have cats and babies in those places! All my Facebook and Instagram photos from now on would be full of green, lush backgrounds and cool cityscapes/architecture never found in Utah or Idaho. I would meet people that didn't know the definition of "molly mormon", who didn't roll their eyes about me living 4 years in the "BYU bubble", who knew what it was like to lives hours away from a temple. I had over 200 pages saved in Evernote for apartments, jobs and even things to do for each place that Mitch sent his applications to. I planned weekend trips to Virginia to meet up with Mitch's sister and brother-in-law who was also going to law school. Sure I knew Mitch kinda wanted to go to the U but that fact got swallowed by my daydreams of forested backyards and long weekend drives to the east coast or NYC.

We flew out just 6 weeks ago and visited the gorgeous campus of University of Maryland law school. I interviewed for jobs in downtown DC and the suburbs of Maryland. We toured several apartments with wooded greenbelts and tree-lined parking areas. Mitch practically told the U of M counselors that he'd made the decision. Upon returning, I of course shared it with everyone! The prideful monster inside me delighted at being able to brag that I wouldn't be stuck here in Utah. No, I was getting out. Ha!.... sometimes now I wonder if that's why we couldn't go back east. I needed to be humbled. Well that pie was large and it got thrown full force into my unsuspecting face.

July 25th, just 6 days after we returned from our DC/Baltimore visit, University of Utah calls Mitch and not only reverses their decision from rejected to accepted but offers him a sizable scholarship. This was his dream all along. I was just too blind and dreamy to realize it. My world played spin-the-bottle and landed on the least desirable candidate...for me.

Today, we're living closer to campus than we would have ever been with schools back east. We're paying tuition at a fraction of what it would have cost anywhere else. Mitch will mostly likely get a high-paying, secure job the second he graduates. We are within a short drive from our family and live within blocks of temple square, yet I am still struggling to be grateful. What conversation is on repeat in my mind?
New acquaintance: "So tell me about yourself"
Me: "Grew up in Idaho, will die in Utah. The End"


Abhorrently negative, selfish, narrow-minded and pessimistic? Yes. Is it getting better?
....Mostly...TBA...God-willing....yes.


p.s.
I have to clarify. Do I blame my wonderful husband? Heavens no, although he unfortunately kept thinking I did through the process. It was not a decision he made lightly nor selfishly and he of course was excited to move as well. It just wasn't in the plan for us...most unfortunately.

Thursday, May 24, 2012



            Why we don't do it…                           On the contrary…

You “know” the other person needs to hear the negative things to improve
\      Negativity improves nothing. And no one can truly “know” exactly what another person needs. It’s not up to you to judge.
\      There is such a thing as too many positives and it makes me feel submissive/powerless
\      Boosting someone else will NEVER make you worse off. As long as you’re sincere, you can never be too positive about someone.
\      I already compliment him/her enough
\      Chances are you don’t. And who defines “enough”? A person should get significantly more praise from their loved ones than anyone else in their life.
\      It’s good for me to get out all the negative things I’m feeling toward him/her
\      Not to their face. Yes, get the negatives things out, go for a jog, write down your feelings or put in some head phones but let it dissipate privately. Then whatever feelings persist, present them using “I” statements (see below).
\      He/she doesn’t have enough positive things for me to comment on

\      You probably don’t either. Take time to seek them out and you'll find more than you realized.
\      He/she doesn’t follow the rule

\      Be proactive NOT reactive. If you’re always waiting on the other person to make the first positive move then you’ll be waiting a long time. And it’s contagious so if you start then chances are they’ll catch on.


“I” Statements

From the marriage handbook created by StrongerMarriage.org:

“I” statements can be combined with a specific focus on the behavior. Labeling a person can
quickly make that person defensive and upset. See how these are different:

\      “You’re such a slob,” vs. “I’d like it if you’d remember to put the wet towels in the hamper.”
\      “You’re thoughtless,” vs. “I feel really sad that you forgot our anniversary.”
\      “You never help with the children,” vs. “I’d feel much less stressed if you helped with the children’s bedtime routine.”

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Marriage Infographic


I was thinking about how Mitch and I need to take more pictures of our married life activities and was thinking what we could do with them. I originally thought of just doing a collage of our photos in the shape of an L but I was looking for something more interesting...with more detail. Then I thought of doing an infographic like the one shown here with collected facts and little icons etc. Here is the list I have so far of things to keep track of for the first year.

Number of states visited
frozen yogurt trips
Sunday dinners cooked
Number of times "I Love you" said (based on daily average of 2 times/day)
Number of bike rides
Journal entries
Road trips
Number of spiders found in basement
Wendy's trips
Bruges wafflles (or other dessert places) trips
Number of video games played together
Double/group dates
Number of songs listened to in the car
Different types of sports played/attended together
Number of dollars spent at ______
Number of texts sent (calculate w/a weekday and weekend average)

Wednesday, May 2, 2012


This Is It

That moment when you see all the tragic news footage of fires and natural disasters flash across your mind and think “I might be a casualty or a barely breathing  under a ton of rubble”. This particular brand of fear comes each time the fire alarm blares. For most, this comes as a yearly or quarterly drill meant to prepare for the worst, with no real threat. Still, though only the most transparent of us will admit, we have that split second of “what if this isn’t a drill” or “this is it”.
I had such thoughts traipse through my head this morning  and, unfortunately, while finishing my business in the office ladies room. Alone. In the dark. Certainly the fastest I’ve ever used toilet paper in my life. Amidst fleeing the stall (that would surely crush me no matter the disaster) the automatic lights flashed back on for a second and I took a glimpse in the mirror. And suppressed a smirk. My face was a frozen ‘composed’ panic (you know the kind where you want to look cool and not scared but the fear beneath the surface is poking through) and I was pulling my skirt frantically over my underwear…and prancing toward the door. Once the smoke I swore I saw “dissolved” and I joined the throng leading to the stairwell, I relaxed. Instantly, my fallback method of becoming chatty to unkink my nervous energy started up. As my legs still shaky from the startle brought me down the stairs, I prayed no one would notice…even though shaky legs were widely shared because when that alarm went off everyone thought, even for a split second, “this is it”. 

Friday, April 13, 2012

                                            Better Things Ahead.
Mitch and I work in our respective offices from 8 to 5 daily doing mostly stationary, computer-based assignments. We know we're not in our dream careers and we know we must endure this until our next phase in life. We try to avoid the phrase "I don't want to go to work tomorrow" but it comes often. We are happy to have completed our undergraduate degree and grateful for the family that has helped us get to this point. 
But it's only NOON ON A FRIDAY and we're ready to be done for the week. Date night with friends at Pizzeria Limone, moving my grandpa to an assisted living location and a quick trip to Price will hopefully make the weekend fulfilling, in order to transition us back to our 40 HOUR DESK JOBS.

Friday, March 30, 2012

Budgeting Gumption

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Groupon is a clever beast. They send me emails and I can ignore exactly 3 out of 4 of them...but that 1 I can't ignore usually gets me to buy something. Typically it's a 50% restaurant deal or auto coupon which, considering how much we go out to eat and need our cars working, it's helpful. However, I sometimes want to splurge on hair care or consumer goods and that is NOT okay. I should probably even cut down the restaurant coupons because that only encourages us to eat out more. Looking at the future budget amounts for law school I can't even begin to justify the spending we do now in comparison...but we're slowly getting better. I found a new slogan help in this frugal journey ahead. I ask myself...


"Can I acquire this thing or service in a different way with similar results and not spend this much?" 

If after true introspection the answer is still No...then it's justifiable BUT if, for an instant I think of an alternative then I need to re-evaluate and probably answer YES.

So does Groupon offer great deals on things I need? Yes
Are some of those deals things that I've already found an economic way to fulfill? Yes
Here's a happy caveat though...
If Groupon offers something I needed before I found the deal AND the discount is better than I would get with my usual method then...I CAN get it! Yay!

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

A quick preface...

I have always been a bit of an amateur sociologist. I enjoy self-help articles and psychological studies on human behavior in my spare time. As such, I sometimes use a character from my own life to launch into commentary on some theory or study I've learned about. As you can see from my most recent post I used my husband whom, to my delight, is very attentive, responsible and in reality only watches a handful of sports games a week. Conveniently the advice, therefore, can be applied to the light/medium watcher like my husband, or the heavier watchers that one may encounter in their lives. Peruse the posts with that in mind....


March Madness....how to survive

 
This marriage advice book (by Dr. John Lund) that I've been reading in the evenings and sharing highlights with Mitch, has been pretty insightful. I've learned that men need to know the parameters of any assignment or favor, meaning how long it will take, what it will involve etc. I learned that men can only devote 100% of their attention to one thing at a time while all other activities get 30% or less. Women can usually give 100% to each activity simultaneously so that's why we find it very frustrating that our husbands can't listen to us talk about our day while watching sports. We should not expect them to, it's against their anatomical makeup. Instead, Dr. Lund suggests asking our husbands ahead of time (before the TV goes on) if we can have 15 - 20 mins of talking time a night. Then they know to plan their game-watching around that and anticipate its occurrence on a regular basis. In that case most men, Lund says, are more than willing to give up this time each day. I've also learned to plan my interruptions during commercials or ask him how much longer the game will take. That way it puts my needs on his radar so when the game's over he knows I need his attention next. I'm also starting to come up with activities that I can do in the same room while he watches games so that we can still be together. I get on my laptop, check email, work on a photoshop project, organize photos, find recipes, pinterest, stretch, read, do a craft project etc. He enjoys having me in the room even though I'm not watching and I can be productive and not get frustrated by my aversion to watching sports.

Overall, the best advice we've received, for any situation, is to be respectful and never criticize. I would include that this means not complaining to other women about how much sports watching our husband or boyfriend does. Women have the uncanny ability to commiserate over a vast number of things, let's not make one of those our husbands' habits or faults. 

Monday, February 27, 2012

Wedding Prep Advice

Marriage day prep is as crazy as everyone says. I was fortunate enough to not feel the full force until a few weeks before but boy did I feel it. Number one piece of advice I'd give to future brides: Make an outline!! All the relatives/friends involved in reception setup etc., make sure they know minute by minute how everything should go. Put the times of when sealing, photo sessions, reservations times are along with addresses of flower/food/rental pickups etc. And give assignments (after confirming with the individuals of course). Put the phone numbers of the main parties on the outline and give a copy to each group. I wish I had done this!!!

Other pieces of advice...ask people to help you with invites (labels, stuffing, cutting etc.). DO NOT do it alone. Make a list of things you must have for the day of and then things that are negotiable. Secure the must-have's first. I did this and was very grateful. This did include charging items on my credit card but I made huge payments each paycheck so nothing was ever due (I think this helps raise your credit score too so that's a plus).

The Honeymoon

We had an absolute wonderful time! And this is what I suggest you do and don't for best results.

DO...go to the doctor. I was literally 99% more nervous than I needed to be. I brought my cousin who I'm close with and that made it even less nerve-wracking. So I suggest bringing a friend/relative that you're close with to help you relax. I also chose a male doctor because he was gentle (versus a female who might have a more "toughen up" attitude) If the doctor doesn't suggest that you use something leading up to the honeymoon then talk to me. It's a lifesaver if you do a certain appropriate prep work. 

DO...talk about sex often with your fiance. Yes the first few times are extremely awkward but it will be 100% worth it in the end. After a few weeks the awkwardness will be minimal and by the time the day comes, not only will you be excited but your nervousness will be almost 0%. You could try looking up "ice breaker" questions for starting the conversation or just jump in cold turkey but DO IT.

DO...book a nice place for your first night. I splurged a little bit but it was so worth it. That's the last place you want to feel any discomfort with your surroundings. Ask me if you want a recommendation.

DON'T...get all your advice from parents or others of their generation. While they have good general advice, I don't recommend getting all the details this way. A) it was a while ago for them and B) technology has advanced in this area that make things easier and still appropriate. 

Married Life

Having only been married for 10 days I highly recommend married life, obviously, but I can still see how it can become a significant learning experience as many say. We've followed the advice of those around us to pray together each night and I've started to share little marriage tips from a book I'm reading. Is it too early to read a marital success book? Absolutely not! The conversations we've gleaned have been amazingly healthy and entertaining, even this early on. 

And...as a sidenote. If you're 22 and single like I was, DO NOT convince yourself that you're not getting married no matter how many relationships you've been in. There is no age limit on getting married in this world and especially if you're under 30, don't even start to accept single life. It's inconsiderate to girls that are older than you and it puts your heart through unnecessary stress. It literally can happen quicker than you can imagine and if you're wasting your energy on "preparing to be a twenty-something spinster" then you might not have the strength to form your lips into "Yes" when he pops the question. 

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

A quote to live by...

" There are seasons in life. Don't ever let anyone deny you the blessings and joy of one season because they believe you should be in—or stay in—another season." -Jane Clayson
Change of pace. Change of lifestyle.

One thing to keep in mind before I rant and rave too much. This stage of my life really is good and as One Republic puts it "Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want, We're young enough to say Oh this has gotta be the good life"

And this won't be the last change either. I recently graduated (well I walked but with 4 credits to finish before August I'm practically done). Found a great internship near my grandpa's house so I'm living with him and working part time on the weekends. Until I establish a more solid social life up here I tend to make frequent trips down to the college town to meet up with old roommates, cousins, and the man in my love life.

Sundays I've learned can be far more lonely than I had imagined. Contrary to the happy post I made previously watching Little Women with the roomies, I now read...and read and eat and nap and read. All in a quiet house only interrupted occasionally by talks with gramps or chats with my other cousin living with us. Boohoo you might say. Why complain about that? Well I shouldn't complain. It's a great setup and I enjoy helping out grandpa and having my own room. The loneliness will abate with time I am confident. And the more confidence I find in myself and my independent abilities to fill empty spaces of time will further expedite the process.

List of things to accomplish/stay busy with:
  • Find a job for the fall (#1 priority)
  • Make new friends
  • Build relationship with cousin and grandpa
  • Exercise regularly
  • Yard maintenance (might be a long time before I live somewhere with a yard again)
  • Read (currently reading I am a Mother by Jane Clayson, and The Book Thief by Markus Zusak)
  • Improve my cooking skills
We'll see how far I get with these before adding anything else.

One last thing I learned when feeling down or unmotivated it's good to plan fun activities regularly to keep yourself optimistic and excited for the immediate future which will then help you to be more proactive in establishing an exciting long term future. 

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Sunday afternoons can be beautiful times to delve into childhood dreams that have followed you through young adulthood. When I first saw Laurie kiss Jo I began to daydream about my own first kiss. I dreamed of laughing and dancing with a guy who became more than a friend. The family and friends encircling Meg's marriage gazebo launched fantasies of my own wedding one day. Some of these dreams have come to pass but still some are yet to be. Every time I saw Beth's death scene I pondered on my own feelings around my sister's death. And Marmee was always so wise and knew just what to say to not only comfort but empower her girls, just like my mom has always done. While no Christian Bale has ever besottedly watched me from next door, and I have yet to be surprised with a kiss on a bench in scenic England, I have dabbled in discovering potential young love and learned to turn heartache into bittersweet optimism for the future. I have learned that writing can be the most rewarding listener when other sources fail. "Time brings change, and change takes time".

Friday, January 21, 2011

Into the wide deep

I'm not particularly fond of diving boards, or cliffs, or drops on roller coasters. I am fond of wide open spaces, well with maybe a few scattered gas stations or Walmarts, so I guess I'm fond of open spaces...bordering a suburb but regardless I appreciate solidity. A commodity not usually found in those thrilling activities above. It is for this reason that, after having a wide open but comfortable space living in the same town and doing the same thing for the past four years, I hesitate to take that step toward the diving boards of real adult life.

I am walking at graduation in April. I will receive my degree in the mail in August. Swimming lessons not included. Between now and then I must find an internship and...start the rest of my life.

Marriage? Graduate school? Mission? All more comfortable options with specific structure and relative predictability. However, I have chosen the path that leads to the cliffs of exciting apprehension and hallways of unopened doors. True, it is the best time to discover myself and with all my possibilities laid out in front of me how could I not run toward it. How could I not...

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Interview with Dad, former reporter for KDLH TV

My dad reporting outside Boise Cascade in Duluth, MN
Gagnon, K: This is the John Gagnon Oral History Project, session number one with Mr. Gagnon on November 26. We’re near his home, 10670 Blackhawk Dr. Boise, Idaho in the café of Hastings bookstore. The interviewer is Kristin Gagnon, Brigham Young University.

Gagnon, K: You were born February 5, 1961 in Minneapolis?

Gagnon, J: St. Paul actually.

Gagnon, K: What sparked your interest in broadcasting at BYU?

Gagnon, J: It goes back to when I was a junior in high school involved in speech and debate. My speech teacher Mr. Langly told me, “John if you don’t get into broadcasting you’re going to kick yourself down the road”. He though my writing was good with descriptions and adverbial phrases and so I did a piece on a funeral director who was our bishop, Bishop Farmer back in St. Louis and it was such a fun thing to do. I interviewed him, asked him all the question and wove all his answers into a description about being a mortician. I loved the piece and I got the best grade in the class. The teacher even held it up and told everyone how good it was. I learned so many important things and myths about being a mortician. He loved his career as a mortician and this was traditionally not the case because drunks and other being usually took the job because of what you’re doing getting through all the dead bodies. He told all of his close friends and relatives that he wanted to do their embalming for them because he takes great pride in how they look in the casket. The coloration for the skin and hair, he just makes them look really beautiful. I felt the spirit as I was listening to that because it’s just such a sacred thing anyway.
Gagnon, K: How did you get the job at KDLH TV?

Gagnon, J: I did an internship, as it was part of the degree to do an internship. As I was approaching the last semester I signed up for an internship back in Minnesota at KLDH TV at Duluth and I think I spent the summer with them at least for a couple months. They were happy to do it, I made arrangements ahead of time, told them I’d be interested in coming up there. I had some ideas for stories that they and I were excited about. At the end of that they told me I had a job with them if I was interested when I was done at BYU.

Gagnon, K: As opposed to how they do it online today how were you able to find that internship back then?

Gagnon, J: I’m trying to think how I found out. That’s a good question. There wasn’t anybody that helped me or any resources in that way. I don’t even remember but it seems like maybe I had a connection before I called. I’d been in Minnesota a lot and been through Duluth and seen the station. Maybe I knew someone during my time there that was connected to the station and they referred me. I stayed with grandma like I usually did for the summers. There weren’t any previous students that had worked for them. I just had the Minnesota connection with relatives on the iron range and they loved to have interns like anyone does because there was stuff for them to do. They didn’t have to pay them anything. It was much more common back then to have unpaid internships at least for broadcasting. There were a couple of reporters that interned there that got hired by KDLH and others that found work elsewhere. It was a small station, the 120th market. Maybe in Minneapolis they would have given you something for working but at KDLH there wasn’t any pay. I knew the station because it came through to grandma’s house. I wanted to get back to the family there so it all seemed to work. I didn’t’ want to go back to where my mom lived in St. Louse because it was a much bigger market and what dictated my decision was my desire to be closer to relatives and be kind of rural and small versus the big time. It was a more emotional decision.

Gagnon, K: What were some of the first stories you worked on?

Gagnon, J: One of the first ones was the Hullrust Mine, in Hibbing, Minnesota. They were having some kind of anniversary. Supposedly the world’s deepest mine. So it was a lot of fun and my first one. I had heard of iron mining because all my relatives were minors so I knew the industry a little but to be right there interviewing, reporter standup as we call it. This was as an intern and I really liked the story a lot. The first stories I did when I was hired was on seminary program. I talked to my producer and I said. “Hey what if I had a story idea where you’ve got 15 teenagers getting up at 6am to study the bible” and he said, “No way that’s great. Sounds awesome”. I was assigned to the adolescent beat when I got there because everyone got assigned to a beat. I was probably older there because I had been on a mission. I was roughly the medium age in the station. I was about 22 years old. I did a couple others stories about youth programs and I liked that because it wasn’t spot news. I didn’t really like that news that you had to go and get quickly and ask questions and get it on the air. Fast breaking news. I was more feature kind of pieces. One of the other ones I did was on a girl that tried to collect several million pop can tabs and if she did that she would get a huge donation for a kidney transplant that her or someone needed. SO the whole community collected these pop can tabs and somehow they recycled those and she got some serious money for that and it was just a great story. I got to meet the girl and you could just tell she was struggling and in treatment and then I interview the community leaders and school officials. It was just a feel good story. I had to travel about 90 miles to Northern Wisconsin. There was a KDLH news truck that we used. I was assigned to cover a murder or some of those kinds of stories and I didn’t like those. That’s why they assigned me the adolescent beat and county government, entrepreneurial businesses. I did a lot of stories in Northern Minnesota with these cottage industries they called them. That was a lot of fun. You could take time and be more creative and expressive with those kind of stories as apposed to bare bones and you had 20 seconds and here’s the source and you’re done. That was not my cup of tea.

Gagnon, K: Do you notice any major difference in the way reporters cover a story on the news today?

Gagnon, J: You know I don’t watch a lot and I’ve seen maybe a couple of dozen since that time. I haven’t watched a lot. I can tell the ones that haven’t done it a lot that they’re kind of new. A lot of clichés which you find in this business. I did that a lot too because that’s what you rely on. Phrases you use to wrap up stories. For instance I did a story on Bob Dylan and his boyhood home was in Hibbing, Minnesota. So I ended the piece by saying, “But whether body Dylan will ever rise again in popularity, the answer is blowing in the wind”. We were encouraged at least a BYU to avoid that kind of stuff. They were about fundamentals. Avoid getting into a cutesy habit like that. Or they will end with simple information like the “press conference will end at 5pm” and you’re like so what, give me the story with a creative take home message as opposed to facts as what was happening. We were told to avoid that at BYU and that stuck with me. I avoided that like the plague. Don’t end with information that an anchor could end with as they bring the story back. Why waste airspace telling those minute details. I do watch stories now with a critical eye. Its hard not to. I watch how the sound bites are tied in. It’s a sign of a novice that a person will lead into the sound bite basically reviewing what the sound bite will say because it’s redundant. You just wasted airtime.

Gagnon, K: How did the hours affect your family life?

Gagnon, J: That’s partially the reason I got out. Those first few years I missed every birthday, wife’s birthday, thanksgiving. Your mom and I were talking about what we did for thanksgiving then and she said “well you were in the newsroom” and what about Christmas and new years day? “You were in the newsroom”. Especially the day after the holidays because they had to rely on someone that didn’t drink that could get up and cover the next day. A designated reporter. And most of them were single and so they would just go socialize and then say “John you have to cover because you don’t drink”. I was assigned specifically because of that reason. When you’re first there you just have to e there for some of the unpleasant times. They wanted me to be a weekend anchor and I auditioned for it and they liked what I did because I was a backup anchor. I told them I just didn’t want to mess with Sundays. I told myself I would avoid it and I told them thanks but no thanks. It might have been an increase in salary and more time off during the week since it was a weekend deal but it was already impacting my family as it was and I didn’t want it to impact my church life. But it was hard. I would leave for work about 7 o’clock, catch the bus while we were living in Superior, and get home about 7 o’clock at night. So it was 12 hour days every days for 5 days so 60 hour weeks. That begins to impact your family when you don’t seem them in the morning and when you come home its after dinner when the kids have already eaten. You play with the kids a little bit and then off to bed you go.

Gagnon, K: If a local station here asked you to do a story, not giving up your current job, would you? I know you’ve done radio voice-overs in the past few years.

Gagnon, J: Yea I have done voice-overs and I think I would. Mom encourages me to do that and I still hear of things and think that would be a great story to do so I think I could do that. It’s just that it takes so much time but if I thought I could work it out a little bit. It couldn’t’ be a time crunch thing but it would be kind of fun to do. I would be nervous of the technology. I guess as a reporter you wouldn’t’ have to worry so much about that because whatever you do it would just be easier to edit. I would never go back to full time. Too many hours and there were often times, covering the other kinds of stories I just didn’t feel like there was personal fulfillment. The feature pieces felt like there was personal fulfillment but the other ones felt like I just wasn’t helping people. Even though real news does, it helps people make important government decisions and helps keep government officials accountable for their actions. They have important functions that are now shared by a lot of organizations. Back in my time it was just the stations, they didn’t have the internet and other sources for news. They didn’t have cable mainstream and so it has changed a lot that way.

Afterward in the car (off record)

He really hated the pressure he got from the editors when they told him he had to shorten his stories and get to the point. He felt like he couldn’t put any emotional connection or expression into his pieces. When on site reporting a story he also could not spend too much time getting to know the people he was interviewing. The photographers and cameramen would get frustrated with him when he wanted to stay and get to know the people better. He felt like he just met a new friend and they were insensitively asking him to stop building the friendship connection. He used to have dreams all the time about having to get a story written last minute before deadline. It was so much a part of his life, spending at least 12 hour days there that it pervaded his lifestyle while he was sleeping too. Just recently he had a dream about writing a story last minute and not being able to get it to the editor on time. He knows now that this type of fast paced work environment is not for him. With seminary he feels like he can be creative and develop those close relationships with people without strict commitments or deadlines creeping up to interrupt. 
Mom and Dad, John and Mary Gagnon


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Obsession

I may be using that word far too lightly to describe my affinity towards interior design blogs. I am not a junkie...yet. As of today I only check my various favorites once or twice a week. Now that I have written exactly 43 words on the topic it will be thrust further to the forefront of my mind and I will commence to check them daily.

Recent additions to my list: Shabby Chic and la belle vie
I'm still getting used the the shabby blog. It's a little too much shabby and not enough chic for my liking but I'm sure I'll capture a few gems now and again. Like this one:

la belle vie is becoming more of a favorite every day. How can I resist rooms like this...




Wednesday, September 1, 2010

My Bucket List

1. Visit either NY, Florida, or Canada
2. Experience Parade of Homes
3. Vacation in a modern bungalow like this one



4. Travel in a hot air balloon
5. Go on a cruise
6. Remodel a room
7. Own a dog and a cat simultaneously
8...

Friday, August 6, 2010

Neglected

Is anything worse than this especially when it is unintentional. Nothing can solve it. Nothing can replace the feeling. The best thing to do is work around it. Find other things to keep you upbeat and moving forward and hopefully the feeling will ebb away to unnoticeable or be solved by not feeling neglected anymore

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Advice from Austen




Recently while completing my library shelving duties, I came across "Jane Austen's Little Advice Book" compiled by two distinguished female fans. Stopping myself from reading the whole thing right there, I checked it out to bring home and share. I chose a few areas I felt particularly applied to me and those in my similar stage of life and demographic, that of a single woman supporting herself through college and the intricacies of the dating world.




On the Ideal Man:

"All I want in a man is someone who rides bravely, dances beautifully, sings with vigor, reads passionately, and whose taste agrees in every point with my own".
~Sense and Sensibility

I would contentedly agree with all these points save the last one.

On Men Being Not That Big of a Deal:
"What are men to rocks and mountains?"
~Pride and Prejudice

I would preface this with, "When men are being insensitive and difficult and one wishes to be apart from them for a time". Not to be applied to all times because there is no denying that snuggling with that certain man in one's life is far preferable to rocks and mountains.

On Women's Loyalty:
"All the privilege I claim for my own sex...is that of loving longest, when existence or when hope is gone".
~Persuasion

Unfortunately this very principle is why we have so many battered woman remaining with their abusive spouses for atrociously too long. On a happier note this is the part of us that can outlast the impatience of men and convince them to stick with us and be happy forever!

On the Attractiveness of Men You've Broken Up With
"She became jealous of his esteem, when she could no longer hope to be benefited by it. She wanted to hear of him, when there seemed the least chance of gaining intelligence. She was convinced that she could have been happy with him, when it was no longer likely that they should meet".
~Pride and Prejudice

I wholeheartedly agree and admittedly do and feel the same way after breakups no matter who broke it off. It is because of this that I am grateful to have never dated anyone in my ward or complex. Proximity is a killer for me and probably for most women trying to get over men. Ironically I find it almost harder to get over it when it was my idea in the first place....pondersome...

On the Enduring Double Standard
"...loss of virtue in a female is irretrievable...one false step involves her in endless ruin...her reputation is no less brittle than it is beautiful...she cannot be too much guarded in her behavior towards the undeserving of the other sex".
~Pride and Prejudice

Thankfully this does not apply as much to us in the context of gender as it once did in earlier times however reputation regardless is something to remember when carrying out risking actions in any environment or company.

On Love as Just Plain Craziness:
"There is nothing people are so often deceived in, as the state of their own affections."
~Northanger Abbey

How true this is. No argument, addendum, or preface necessary.

On Never Judging People by Appearances:
"Varnish and gilding hide many stains".

How often I have learned this lesson may I never know, for it would surely shock me.

On Why You Shouldn't Dump Your Girlfriend When You Get a Boyfriend:
"Friendship is the finest balm for the pangs of despised love".

to be continued...





Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Here comes the sun again

I took this sunny picture while visiting relatives in Cedar City. Sometimes I pretend to be a photographer and take supposed artsy pictures at odd angles. Not sure how this one turned out. May I perfect my art at some later date...

Summer is finally dragging its way on here. I do enjoy rain especially if it's warm but when it is coming between me and laying in sunshine by the pool I find it not so welcome. Here are some goals of mine for the summer:

  • Continue doing yoga at least once a week hopefully more
  • Bite the bullet and work more hours = more security in fall finances
  • Stabilize my dating status/opportunities
  • Get out of Utah/Idaho
  • Finish all the books I'm in the middle of reading
My list seems lackluster at the moment and I might add or edit it in the future....or I might not. I have high hopes for a good summer and plan to make it worthwhile.

Sun don't fail me now!